A Foot in Two Families. This way, they can provide a better home for their child and recommit to their parenting responsibilities. (Picture: Ella Byworth for Metro.co.uk) ‘I don’t want to live anymore but I’m scared to die’ is one of the most-searched mental illness confessions on Google. Help! After a while the happy in the moments all joined up to be happy all the time. As a parent you ARE responsible for your child until they turn 18. :hug:
You don't want to be on your own and that's understandable but aye it's better to be on your own than be with a *** h*le you deserve better and one day your Mr right is going to come along and love both you and your son for you and we won't be like the other and although he will help you heal somewhat. THE GUILT IS 24/7, I am trying so hard but I am exhausted now and I am sick of her treating us all like utter crap all of the time. I feel a horrible person in my own home. Learning positive parenting techniques might help. We learnt lots of mind body things on the course and I benefitted from them all, but mindfulness was kind of a recentering of yourself and a way to live happy in the moment. Sent from my SM-G930F using Netmums mobile app, What sort of childhood did you have? olds, 1-8yrs old, my father passed away about 8 yrs. But does anyone else really resent that the responsibility always falls on the mother? I used to be a very happy and positive person. The Mix offer counselling sessions for children from the age of 10, but this is via a web chat service and gives her up to 8 sessions which last 50 minutes each. I don't want to live with my child anymore . Don't judge me or write your bad comment here, pls. My x offers no support with the children financially or otherwise and has very little to do with them, but apparently that is my fault, because I supposedly stop him from seeing them. I find myself wanting to love them but I just can't. We had just been told he's got anxiety he's 6, maybe if you took your little boy to the doctors and explained how he behaves there might be underlying issue that's not been picked up. Hi Angela,
... rented house and we were happy. Looks, mannerisms etc. should i give him up for adoption? You did not leave your child.
But it sounds like you’re stuck between 2 different lives-1 as mummy and 1 as the new you who has the freedom to do what she wants now you’re free of your abusive past. I suppose I'm just looking to see if anyone else has every felt anything similar, otherwise I must just be a terrible person :(. I know that if I say no to him then I've got some sort of attack coming to me. I do not want to be the horrible new daughter in law and kick her out. What we're your parents like? 3. I have had to give up work because I was constantly late because of her. Sent from my SM-A300FU using Netmums mobile app, You have been through a lot of heartache i agree with the previous poster claire that you could have PTSD the fact you have had to be so strong when all you wanted to probably do is collapse comes out later on i find in different ways. We have tried almost everything. Netmums has not checked the qualifications of anyone posting. I too was in an abusive relationship for many years, to many to count. From a woman who has been through a lot to and has PTSD like the other person said I think you have this to and finding your feelings can be hard..it doesn't feel like the medication helps and I said that for years but after giving them chance it started helping a hit..it takes time over a month. In most states, a child is bound by the parenting agreement until he or she is 18. I’d suggest you spend more time with your son as mine grew up and time was lost. Whilst it wasn't physical it was very phycological. We dread her waking up each day and banging down the stairs step by step, slowly and ominously. No one bats an eyelid when they do. We had just been told he's got anxiety he's 6, maybe if you took your little boy to the doctors and explained how he behaves there might be underlying issue that's not been picked up. They are only like they are towards you with the abuse because they feel horrible inside and project it onto you. I firstly could not imagine having to deal with his behaviour while having to look after a newborn. There is a saying that it takes a village to raise a child and I really believe that everyone needs help. Like none of them. And you may of fallen out of love with your partner or it may just be that you are feeling so down that you have pushed him away i some times felt that way. can't cope, can't breath, don't want to be here anymore. This is something that you should be really proud of. I used to think of myself as a good mum, but I feel like this behaviour must be my fault so I must not be very good at it after all. She upsets me every day. Like you, the dread that enters me when the weekend comes and I know they are going to be home is just more than I can bear. He's a good kid, typical 5 year old who is complete bum hole at times but he does everything I ask of him with very little fuss but I just can't seem to love him, it sounds completely stupid but I am so cold hearted these days that I couldn't care less if he is here or not and I feel awful about it but It's true, I can't wait for him to go to bed (which he does without argument) , I can't wait for him to go to his dads but when he does I sit around feeling so lonely and usually go out clubbing purely to fill the time! I just want my life back or for it all to stop. You have kindly given me a few minutes of your time, and I do appreciate that. The noise level in the house can be reduced. The ones that say no one likes you, you aren’t good enough, your fat, they don’t want to be around you, look they don’t want to do anything with you, they aren’t really your friend and your pathetic. I have been separated from him for just over a year now. There is usually something going on in my life that causes these feelings to surface, it may be depression, it could be loneliness, it could be feeling left out and mid life crisis type thing! It was always obvious that she was different but it took a lot of fighting with GPs to be referred for a diagnosis. Sometimes, people thinking, “I don’t want my child to live with me anymore” don’t necessarily want to terminate their parental rights — but they do wish for a break from parenting to better their situation. Their behaviour sucks!!!! When children live with their dads, people automatically assume the mother is a terrible person. I feel like I am going to have a nervous breakdown. Pregnant 8 Weeks IVF Rainbow baby But I don’t know what to do I just really don’t want too live anymore !! She is like her biological dad, manipulative, aggressive and devoid of empathy. I used to be a very happy and positive person. I think I did it because I wanted a lifeline. I started feeling like this with my eldest... she is now 12. She was low on eye contact and much more easily soothed by my parent's than me. I don't want him. And you may of fallen out of love with your partner or it may just be that you are feeling so down that you have pushed him away i some times felt that way. You need to do this not only for you for your son because to him you are the most important person in the world so yes...someone does love you and that love won't ever end like a relationship can. Don’t assume your child always wants to chat or text. I know people will read this and judge me, and think I have made my bed so I should lie in it. Please someone give me some answers. I don’t want to play with them, I did not think that I had to, my mom never did, I played with my sisters. He was upset and made at me. You say you don't let your son know, but he will feel it and may try and get attention whether good or bad attention, as some is better than none.
Which I suppose maybe I am, but I just feel like I'm being honest. She very rarely slept and was distressed and crying for a large proportion of the time, i had just had a botched c section, I was in physical and emotional pain. I had my first daughter (I was irresponsible and it was not a planned pregnancy) by an abusive drug addict who I was stuck in a relationship with because he would trap me inside and threaten me. I am madly in love with my own child but still cannot feel anything for my stepchildren. The guilt is eating me whole, I haven't managed to make her happy and I don't even like her and struggle to love her. Everyone is different, we all have different coping levels. And secondly I can't imagine having to go through this all over again with a second. i don't want to live in a home with my father. Once I was pregnant I didn't know what to do but I thought that I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I had a termination and that the baby should have a chance at life. Try and turn it around so that they get your attention for every small little thing that is good behaviour. Have quiet times and a reward sticker for keeping it quiet for 20 minutes. Please do call social services for help and don't let them fob you off. They've told me to get out of their house before and I would if I had the chance because I'm a strong girl and I could definitely do it, I just have nowhere to go. I'm not talking about leaving never to be seen again, I obviously still want a relationship with my son and to see him regularly, the same way children would normally go and stay with their dad at the weekend. I Don't Want My Kids Anymore. You are welcome to come back and keep talking here too, we are listening. My husband's aunt or her sister has made comments about NOT putting her in nursing home. It took practice and to be taught how to do it and several weeks perservering with it. EVERYTHING is drama. To cut a long story short. Listen to calming quiet classical or other music and see if they can think about the instruments playing and what the music means. my mum rarely drunk anymore. With a lot of help from my parents I managed to get away from him. I Don’t Want to Live Anymore. You do not need to put up with beatings and no decent person would expect you to live in fear in your own home. She upsets me every day. ago now my mother ( now 65 yrs.) If your child does not want to live with you because you enforce the rules and the other parent doesn’t, for example, this is a situation where you should likely disregard your child’s wishes. Loraine x, I think you're suffering from PTSD. It sounds like you have got into a rut of negativity. You have been through a lot of heartache i agree with the previous poster claire that you could have PTSD the fact you have had to be so strong when all you wanted to probably do is collapse comes out later on i find in different ways. Obviously I can't talk to anyone about any of these feelings because they would automatically judge me and assume the worst. Aw this is sad to read. I am so so dangerously depressed and lost. I wish I could work 12 hours/day, 7 days a week and come home and snuggle them for 15 minutes at bedtime. He doesn't live in the Uk and he will be flying out with them. He is a really nice kid at times, he is really funny and entertaining, but most of the time he is just a monster. I am a 38 year old single mum to 2, aged 4 and 6. Xx No, this doesn’t mean I want to break up. She is violent, aggressive, spiteful, negative and has a problem with almost everything. I want you to live. And this may include living with your ex. I was on autopilot and felt a complete disconnect and I was EXHAUSTED. As a parent you ARE responsible for your child until they turn 18. He lives too far away. 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